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1:26 p.m. - 2004-07-21

strong... strong... dammit.

My buddy list is sadly full of people who have not updated in more than three months. My list of diaries that I check compulsively is shrinking as one by one the authors find another thing to do with their time. I don't have the sleepless nights or slow afternoons in the office anymore to go hunting for new names.

And, I've had a headache for two days. I have a theory that I'm stressing myself into it with my circular crush-on-the-boss logic. Also I'm in horrible break-out mode skinwise. The lesson seems to be, don't crush out on your boss, kids, it'll give you pimples and a never-ending headache.

I had lunch with the bartender. Yes, well, that little willpower item didn't last too terribly long. Perhaps it's good practise for me to have someone like her around. There are so many obvious reasons why we're not going to fall into our own private puddle of domestic bliss, maybe I need that. My history involves far, far too many instant-domesticity equations. I realise I like her a lot more when she's not guilting out about me. Which leads me to the conclusion that she must have been guilting about me (who knew?) and I just didn't realise it. Anyway, she's stopped now, and is much better company for it.

She starts work at the big dyke pub tonight. Women (I am an obvious example) are total suckers for her brand of (naughty Catholic boy) good looks. She should make good tips off all the drunk lesbians in high-gear pick-up mode. I'm not sure whether to dress up, go out, and tease the hell out of her, or sit home and nurse my headache. Ouch. Drinking is most definately not a good idea.

She texts me at work to tell me about the uniform shirts and dogtags she's picking up today. As if I wasn't annoyingly horny already. Perhaps the headache is a result of... uh... unrelieved tensions. Is that possible?

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